swirlingblacklily

I've always enjoyed exploring my options artistically.   Because I've always had it in my mind that everyone can draw or paint or photograph pretty things. But I hate the feeling that I create a lot of things that end up being mediocre.  I'd rather be really ace at something.  Much like my boyfriend who excels at anything computer related. I also realized that I'd much rather have an imagination than be some sort of physics wizard. I'd much rather come home and draw a world that I wish to be part of than think about this dismal, depressing world and the technicalities of being a sub-par human being. I'd like to be a child all over again,

So I decided to go through my gallery and delete some unnecessary, blurry, over-contrasted, grainy, ridiculous photos I may have taken towards the beginning of time(my membership). .......I found a lot of photos that fit that criteria.  Not that I was surprised, I suppose disappointed would be a more suitable word. It also reminded me of the innocence I used to have before I became a horrible, chain smoking, cynical cunt. The city can do horrible things to you if you're not careful. (spoken as I am drinking a 24oz Miller Lite and smoking a terribly tasty hand rolled cigarette) I dream of better things. Then, my hands start to get the itc

I'm pretty excited, I just got a roll of film back (black and white) and it turned out so well. I"m so proud. anyway. that's all.